the days are whizzing past at such a speed that i can hardly keep track. what bothers me is my singular inability to work on the papers that i need to work on most urgently, and the fact that the concentration span seems to have fallen to an all time low. this coupled with the grappling problem of contradictory emotions seems to be a recipe for going straight downhill. 

'come over to the dark side for once' , a joked today.  

'there's no point remaining so doggedly positive and hopeful'.

perhaps he's right. but i still hold on to my ground, sink my teeth in. because there's no coming back after hitting the dark side. 

and i guess i'm unashamedly corny, naive, dramatic, idealistic and allied things at this moment in my life, as i write this.